30/09/10- Is it Love

Today, Michael, Sanley and Raymond came over to our house and played. I have so much fun with them today. It was the best day in my holidays so far. The best bit was when Sanley and I saying random numbers and words to make the guys confused. For some reason today, I found that I want to talk to Michael more than usual. I don't know why but i know it's wrong to have feelings to a cousin. I just can't stop this felling for some reason. Maybe...I am already in love with him but that couldn't happen at all because he's my cousin. I'm really confused now. I found that my situation is the same as Guin Ga Jai and Yu Sau Chu in Moonlight Resonance. Ah Chu likes Guin Ga Jai but she doesn't dare to tell anyone. When Michael was talking to me before about chinese movies, my heart was pounding. I wonder if he has the same interest as me or does he just want to make me happy. To hide my feelings, i use Raymond as an excuse. I wonder that it is not true that I like Michael because I have to stay focus on my career first. Also, i'm not going to marry someone that has a lower IQ or earns less money than me in the future.